Dear Friends,
You are suffocating yourself, with never ending desire to change what is happening in the present or with your faulty desire to become somebody(to be free, peaceful, intelligent, rich, popular, famous, powerful). I think we can do this, stop becoming somebody(correcting the present) psychologically and observe. If there is happiness you can go for this way of living, otherwise you can always fall back to your everlasting struggle and effort to become somebody. So can you end your desire to become somebody without any anxiety for what happens next?
You see even in the absence of not becoming anything, there is hard work, and organic growth in day to day life. That hard work is out of passion. Happiness is NOT end result, rather you work hard being happy in the present. Common good, inclusive growth are part of that hard work. Hope you haven't missed the point that there is no sacrifice here, only sharing and being joyful together.
What helps in understanding something, moving close to it or escape from it? If you say moving close, are you doing that? Be alone, and move close to your mind observe how thought is creating immense disorder, suffering inside the skull, as well as in the outer world. How it divides, isolates you from the rest of the world through it's never ending movement. Is moving close possible, if there is judgement as good and bad thought? Is moving close possible if you don't love thought? I wish abundant energy for all of us to move close, until the mind as unnecessary thought process dies in us.
The enemy(The chattering of the mind) is within
